Squiggle & Heart, No. 61

I think (I hope) this one doesn’t need much explanation, but it is directly related to something I experienced this week:

Telling people subsequently about saying no to my recent version of being asked for my gut, and seeing their reactions to what they wanted, has sealed the deal that I made the right decision to say no (Heart won this week), but it’s amazing how much hemming and hawing I did about it, unsure that I could say no. In particular where it involved performance, something I so rarely get asked to do, all my old demons of wanting to be wanted emerged.

I’m very grateful Heart won.